Enlightenment Campaign 2012: What Is It?

This is the first of several videos that are a part of the Enlightenment Campaign 2012. Click here to become 1 of 120 to support the Enlightenment Campaign 2012. I will be posting quotes from high school students that will hopefully provide some insight into their world.

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Teenage Thought #1

“What is teenage life to me? That’s a good question. If I said what teenage life is to me in one word, it would have to be ‘hard.’ No one really gets you, and you don’t even really get yourself. You’re just starting to figure yourself out, who you are and why you are here.” – high school student

– from Hurt 2.0 by Chap Clark

Teenage Thought #2

“I can’t ever find someone to talk to who knows how I am feeling. My parents always say that they know how I feel and that they have been there, but times have changed. They don’t know what I’m going through. So I am forced to keep my feelings bottled up inside. Sometimes I just crack. I get onto everyone I am around. I hate it. I wish I could find someone to talk to who knows me and understands me.” – high school student

– from Hurt 2.0 by Chap Clark

Teenage Thought #3

“I could stare in the mirror for hours and find no connection between my thoughts and the face staring back at me. He seems more like a poorly casted actor whose eyes show his disdain for his role. And yet he smiles. He leads an exceptional life with above average grades and social skills. I just wish my real life were more like the person radiating from his smile. Other people seem like actors and actresses in the same sick droama, almost unreal to me. I have to remind myself when I speak to them that it is the actor they see and not an image more fairly representative of my thoughts. I feel like a renegade separating myself from my intended role, and yet my misery seeks no company. I consider myself too humane to invite stable minds into my thoughts, like enticing the healthy into a leprosy colony. I therefore suffer in silence, longing to be understood but refusing to share such a nightmare with the unknowing. It is a lonely place in the mind of an unwilling actor.” – high school student

– from Hurt 2.0 by Chap Clark

Teenage Thought #4

“I was two when my dad walked out on me and my mom. Sure, I saw him a lot, but it hurt. I never saw him again after fourth grade. He stopped calling and writing. My mom remarried the summer after fifth grade. I hated him. In sixth grade I lost my virginity. I just wanted to be loved by a guy. I hated my life, but when I had sex I felt like I was cared about and loved. I slept with three guys. Then in seventh I started to do drugs and drink. I would go to parties and stay out late. My mom kicked my stepdad out, so I was happy. School started. I was smoking and drinking a little here and there. I didn’t really feel loved or cared about. I felt dead inside. I picked up cutting. When I just felt so alive. To feel the pain was the best feeling I could feel. My mom found out, so I stopped because I had to see a coundselor. A few months later I stopped eating. I had to be perfect. I was the worst daughter. I had bad grades. I had a bad attitude. My dad wasn’t around. I felt like I was worthless. I wasn’t good enough for him. I just want to die half the time. I want to feel like I’m worth something, loved, and cared for. Where do I find that?” – high school student

– from Hurt 2.0 by Chap Clark

Teenage Thought #5

“People think I have the ‘perfect’ life. I wear the right clothes, I hang with the ‘cool crowd,’ my family has money. But the funny thing is, they don’t know that I cry myself to sleep every night because my dad’s expectations are impossible. I struggle with keeping up with school work. I come from a divorced home. They never see the real me. I have to put on a mask. I deal with struggles of beer and alcohol. They don’t know” – high school student

– from Hurt 2.0 by Chap Clark

Teenage Thought #6

“Everyday I live my life for other people and not myself. I can never rest and just be me. I have to be the cheerleader or the honor roll student or the football player’s woman. I can never just be me. All the drinking, parties, football games, even a walk down the halls of my high school seem like an endless drama. Don’t get me wrong. I love my friends and my boyfriend and I really love high school life sometimes . . . but sometimes I wish I could just be me!” – high school student

– from Hurt 2.0 by Chap Clark

Teenage Thought #7

“When I reach down into my inner being trying to grasp hold of who I am, many times I find myself digging into an empty abyss. I’m not saying I feel my life is insignificant. Rather, I feel life is a competition, one that forces me to be someone I’m not. In high school, everyone hides behind masks of insecurity trying desparately to be cool, leaving the search for true friends a long and bumpy road.” – high school student

– from Hurt 2.0 by Chap Clark

Teenage Thought #8

“I may seem like I would fit in, but I’m not too popular. I try to fit in as best as I can. I think that I do a pretty good job. I just don’t know what I did not to fit in. It may just be a stage in my life, but I never feel in the right place. This makes me feel so depressed, but I never show it. I always come off as a happy person to those I meet.” – high school student

– from Hurt 2.0 by Chap Clark

Teenage Thought #9

“I grew up in a home with a Christian mom and a non-Christian dad. My entire life I have struggled between growing in faith and tryig to hide it from my dad. As I passed through the three years of middle school, I realized the problems this fractured identity had created within me. Battling with depression, I often felt worthless. I could not gain a social identity because not even I knew who I was.” – high school student

– from Hurt 2.0 by Chap Clark

Teenage Thought #10

“My parents divorced when I was seven years old. I live in two houses, switching every two days. My parents get mad at me when I need to go to the other house because I forgot something. I get so angry because no one ever asked me if I anted to live in two houses. No one ever asked me if it was okay with me having to keep track of which house my schoolbooks are at. No ove ever asked me if I wanted to split my life in two!” – high school student

– from Hurt 2.0 by Chap Clark